Sky Is Blue Every Day by Pan Yue-yun
Do you like to laugh? I do! When I laugh, I laugh heartily and loudly! How about crying? Do you like to cry? I cry a lot--when I miss someone, I cry; when I watch a touching movie, I cry; when I listen to a sad story, I cry; when I hear some good/bad news, I cry; when I listen to songs like Ni-Wa-Wa, I cry; when I feel hurt/sad, I cry; when I see people cry, I cry, too. In a word, crying is something I never feel embarrassed about doing.
Just a minute ago, I shed some tears of sadness. Not too many people can make me sad; only those whom I love can make me cry. No wonder it's said that love makes people vulnerable. I cried because I just found out the man I love most was still angry with me because he didn't get an "official" apology from me.
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In tears I sent him an email from my office. In the email with the subject of "Please accept my apology", I wrote "Obviously, you don't think my previous email was an apology email. Here I apologize again--please accept my apology for the offensive words I blurted out! When I said those words, I didn't realize they could trigger your rage. I was very insensitive and numb, so please forgive me for the words I said. I had no intention to hurt you. I promise I'll never say those words again." I cried because I felt as if I had been scolded like a child! I cried because I just couldn't believe after I had done so many things for him, I had to apologize for what I had said "Do you have brain?" I don't know how long it will take me to digest this sadness. Yes, I'm very sad now! Here I am in my office blogging my sadness away in the evening of Saturday!
On the way to the movie "The Ides of March", Dan and I were squabbling. Immediately after I heard him say the two magical words, I had a U-turn and drove my car home.
What made him so furious? It was because of one comment I made when he asked me if the movie theater served popcorn for the 9:50 AM showing. What did I say? I said, "Do you have brain? No concession stand would bother to pop popcorn for the first showing." I know I shouldn't have said that, but sometimes some words just blurt out. Shocked to see his violent reaction, I was speechless. I didn't realize "do you have brain" could make my husband furious like a mad man. While I was taking all the arrows shooting from his mouth, a scene occurred to me. About a year ago, I was upset with one of my colleague friends because of one comment she made on me. After I told her something about someone, she said, "Don't be so nosy!" As soon as I heard it, I let her know I was offended because I didn't think I was a nosy person. After she realized she used the wrong word, she apologized and then said she didn't know the word "nosy" could be that offensive/negative to me. I didn't understand how she felt until Dan was mad at me this morning. What a vulnerable couple we are! One comment like "don't be so nosy" or "do you have brain" can make us lose our control or composure! Both of us definitely need to work on our EQ!
